January 2012
3 posts
“The problem with anything that works immediately is that it is a temporary fix....”
fuckyeahatticusross:
Hand Covers Bruise (No...
“In reading, I came across this profound truth filled statement. It changed the...”
December 2011
4 posts
A Moment Come take my hand and the world will...
A Moment
Come take my hand and the world will stop.
I’ve waited for this moment until the courage was sought.
I am ready yet never felt so unprepared.
When your presence near my body forces me to lose all bearings
And the self control so hard earned, so easily spit out.
In this moment, I chose to be with you.
I have made a decision that will forever change the way I think
Re-program the...
muttering nothingness.
i am cold. i have layers of clothes on me and furry lined boots on. Why am I still cold?
kind of like today. I go to bed positive about the next day and sometimes the dark cloud comes over me luring me into isolation. I’m not lazy. So then why do I want to close my eyes to the world? I wanted to work on the William Control tracks but my creativity is jarred. It’s not something you can...
black sheep where have you gone?
Lost in a burning field of grapes
one by one the rows set fire heading for my heels
is it the season or the destruction
the imbalance the chemical disfunction
is it the precondition and the ones that won’t listen
a black sheep she longs to be buried in the beauty of gods creation
the pureness of the soil, the sweetness of the fruit
did jesus add the ethanol? did jesus add the...
November 2011
5 posts
Rob Delaney: On Depression & Getting Help →
This was originally posted February 26, 2010.
I deal with suicidal, unipolar depression and I take medication daily to treat it. Over the past seven years, I’ve had two episodes that were severe and during which I thought almost exclusively of suicide. I did not eat much and lost weight during…
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this is a demo I did a few years back. i’m...
Upcoming Show December 10th at Bar Sinister in... →
Matriarch will be opening for William Control and Davey Suicide
just a song I wrote about feelings…..Not...
October 2011
7 posts
The Demos....
I think I have 2 of the 5 songs I want to put on my ep before Christmas. I know, it’s a stretch but it’s a goal. I’ve been going back and forth with loving and hating my lyrics, vocals, playing etc. I think this is normal but it’s so damn frustrating. I know I cannot please everyone and maybe I should accept that sometimes I won’t be able to please myself. It...
FIRST BIO MATRIARCH RECEIVED
BIO it depends how you define dark. it depends how you define beauty, intelligence and well written, well performed lyrics. one thing that is not dependent upon opinion but is merely observed is the realness emanating from this girl. No label, no pre packaging, just some sad stories and a triumphant strength exuded in her music. Cancer, abuse, merely trying to be heard in an industry saturated...
I did this track with Erik Ron in Burbank,...
““I’m not too afraid of things that are too personal, I”m more...”
September 2011
4 posts
Huffington Post Article About Religion- I identify... →
WatchEarly morning session…. boring video I know. Just wanted to say hi to everyone. Hope you have a great day.
Love
link to the video →
August 2011
7 posts
My crazy high school interview for BUZZNET! →
WatchRecording Background Vocals for The Used!
future of change for the misfits
Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes.The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them.About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They invent. They imagine. They heal. They...
something inspirational from my friend Trent
I wish I came up with that last part, thats from an Apple campaign: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4oAB83Z1ydE As I said, Apple was 90-days from bankruptcy when they came up with this campaign. They knew that if they could somehow reach out to that 5% of crazies they may be able to save the company, and it worked. So my point was if you can reach that same 5% that Apple reached out to 11-13 years...
Ghost of Myself
i’ve outgrown my need for social acceptance. Enlightenment and free thinking now pave my path. I have long ago escaped a dull existence, now the ticking of a clock is just a small annoying noise. I’ve relived many deaths for a young fire sign. I belong to no society, group, organization, religion, or person. - The Lady In Black
July 2011
4 posts
intelligent hip hop statement. i like this. →
WatchHello from set! Wanted to post this yesterday! ahhhh!
June 2011
4 posts
my body hurts.
a trigger for me has always been health issues. Because of events that occurred early on in my life, I feel a deep connection with my mortality. That’s probably why it inspires me so much in my lyrics. right now I am worried for my health but I don’t want anyone else to be worried. I am getting some serious testing done this week and finding out the answers that I need. Sometimes when...
sexy. beautiful. timeless. →
May 2011
8 posts
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April 2011
3 posts
My Rant On Being Denied of Health Insurance
venting…i’d just like to say that our healthcare system is completely unfair, disheartening and ignorant. I could go through lots of examples of friends and family who were denie coverage but I want to respect their privacy. So here’s my experience….
I am 26 and had major medical events happen when I was 16. I needed treatment and surgeries up until my 21st bday. From then...
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What cured my cancer in 2001.
Johns Hopkins Update –
AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY (‘TRY’, BEING THE KEY WORD) TO ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY. Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins: 1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have ...
March 2011
3 posts
